This is a newsletter about female desire in all its forms: the beautiful, inconvenient, ambitious, tender, material, maternal, erotic, intellectual, impossible-to-explain wanting that lives underneath the lives women are expected to be grateful for.

Because wanting is often treated like a problem to solve. A flaw to smooth over. A hunger to discipline. A vanity. A weakness. A thing we should outgrow once we become mothers, wives, adults, good women.

But I don’t believe that. I believe wanting is the first step to manifesting the life you dream of living. Wanting is the desire for more. Something that haunts us to our core. The spark of our drive.

Here, I’ll write about the things women want before they have permission to want them: more time, more beauty, more money, more art, more solitude, more romance, more selfhood, more room.

Sometimes that will mean essays on motherhood, friendship, ambition, love, culture, and reinvention. Sometimes it will mean a list of things I want, whether it’s a book to read, a dress to wear, or even an orgasm.

This is for women who are grateful and still hungry. For women who love their children and still want themselves. For women who suspect desire is not the opposite of a good life, but the way a life begins to expand.

Thank you for being here while I figure out what I want this to be.